More Alix Poetry

Poems 5 and 6 of Part One.

5.

I hug my arms to my chest

Trying to block out

The feelings of something being taken away

Of not being understood

Of being forlorn

Like the motherless little girl

I was, and still am.

Papa worries

Irene reassures

And all I want to do is

Stop the carriage from coming

Prevent it from taking

Ella away.

I don’t want to go

To a foreign country

To watch my

Sister

Mother

Friend

Get married

And stay there forever.

6.

The welcome is

So grand

Ella must feel so honored

And delighted

I feel conflicting emotions

Pride for beautiful Ella

And anger at the Russian people

Welcoming her.

She’s not their Grand Duchess.

She’s my sister.

The Tsar’s daughter

Nine years old

Takes my hand

And pulls me past the fountain

To show me something

In the gardens of their grand palace.

I follow willingly

Glad to have a new friend

And knowing that

Her older brother

Is watching me

Behind us.